Monday, December 28, 2009


I've not been good at keeping up with this blog.  But let me tell you, I have learned a thing or two about restriction.  Too little, too much.  I had an unfill in the band in late November because of my continued acid reflux.  The reflux has subsided, but I have gained 3-5 pounds during the holidays.  I see now more than ever that exercise is so crucial to this process.  I keep making excuses for not exercising.  It was something that I was very driven to do before surgery.  I did it and I enjoyed it because I was trying really hard.  It's nice to not have to try to hard to lose weight, but that does not come without sacrifice.  Too tight, I'm up all night coughing with acid reflux, too lose, I am eating like a ravenous pig.  Okay, maybe not that bad.  I mean, even when I overeat, I can not eat more than a cup's worth of food in a 20 minute period.  If it stays down, great, but I'll be snacking on cookies in an hour.  Bad, bad, bad.  I know.

Tonight, I am having Christmas Eve's leftover beef stew.  It's amazing, and exactly the kind of tender beef I should be eating.  I can eat about 3-4 small strips, a few carrots, some celery, and a small potato chunk.  I'm still not eating nearly the way I used to, but there's a lot more room I could do to improve.  I am not going to make any New Year's resolutions.  I am going to continue to not drink alcohol regularly.  It's a good thing to do anyway, just empty calories.  I enjoy life sober anyway.  Sobriety is centering.  Sobriety from sugar and fat is centering as well.  Weighing less is centering.  I see the world in a much more focused way, and people no longer notice me as they once did.

I know the next 50 pounds is going to be a lot harder than the first 150, but I can do it.

Sunday, November 29, 2009

Shopping, Restriction

Those two, separate but different.

This really shows my frugality and very Capricorn mentality.  I have been putting off shopping through this entire process.  When I started in January I was a size 24/26, and I am now a size 14/16.  However, I have continued to wear my size 18/20 jeans without a belt.  Pulling them up and trying to hope my hips keep them up.  It has now gotten out of hand.  I've been telling myself I would go shopping for three days now, searching for coupons online and then, ultimately deciding to not go because 1) I do not want to spend the money and 2) I don't like shopping.

In the last 6 months, I have spent less than $250 on clothing.  I got some size 16/18 articles from a swap I did with a lady I met on OH in the area.  I really would like to see an active clothing swap group going on in my area.  I guess a lot of people hang on to things longer than necessary and just don't want to part with things?  I haven't done this because I'm lazy about a lot of housework/organizational things.  I'm no slob, but I'm just not tidy and organized like I wish I was.

I did very well over thanksgiving, not gorging myself but then on Friday ate a pint of Cookies and Cream ice cream over the course of four hours.  This is my problem food.  Ice Cream.  I love it.  It will be my demise.  However, I have read quite a few recipes for Protein Ice Cream and tried a few.  I have yet to try any ricotta based and Greek yogurt recipes.  I have an ice cream freezer I borrowed from my mom months ago for this purpose.  I will try both this week with some of the Muscle Milk flavors I currently have: Cake Batter, Chocolate Peanut Butter, and Strawberry Milkshake.

Last time I was at the doctor, he did not give me a fill.  Prior to this, I had .3 taken out.  Suddenly, just before the holidays, I found my restriction had lessen, and I could pretty much consume more than 1/2- 3/4 cup of food but not more than 1 cup.  It's almost been a year, I've lost at a steady rate, but if I don't lose this month I have to take the blame that I didn't do all the things I was suppose to this month but the sudden loss of restriction is also bothersome.  I do have an appointment next week, that I'm thankful.  My doctor is good about scheduling follow-up care for the first year - no charge for out of pocket patients.  Next year, he projects to see me 3-4 times at $100 a pop.  That is completely reasonable to spend on follow-up cake to me.

As for spending money on clothes, I think I am going to work on meeting folks in the area to swap with and go shopping a little today.  I might as well go to Target and do some Christmas shopping. 

Tuesday, September 29, 2009


I am feeling a little run down tonight.  Hungry, because I feel like I haven't been getting enough of what I should eat.  For one thing, I had one of those "don't know where I am going to eat" with total strangers today.  I went down to Grand Isle for work this morning and had lunch with the mayor and port commission president and some other good ol' boys from the coast.  I ended up ordering the gumbo and potato salad.  They were out of potato salad, so I got a potato.  I drank the gumbo broth, ate some sausage and chicken, and some potato.

Tonight at dinner I could not eat more than two bites of steak.  I must admit though, I have been eating too much potato... creamy mashed potatoes with dinner... yum.  But still, I ate less than a 1/2 cup of food.  My size 18 Target pants I bought over a month ago now fit. I would say I'm more like a 16 in other brands.  I hate shopping.  I really don't like having to constantly go through my clothes to see what fits. It's all getting too big to quickly!  The cold weather will be nice though, I am sure my mom can give me some warm sweaters.  Christmas is not that far away... this year has flown by!

So, I wasn't feeling so hot this evening because I felt like I needed some nutrients.  So I give you:

Vanilla Cheesecake Pudding

1/2 cup cottage cheese
1 scoop GNC Women's Multi-Vitamin Powder
1 scoop Muscle Milk Lite Cake Batter Flavor Protein Powder
1 tsp. Torani SF Vanilla Syrup
3 T milk

Blend all ingredients well in a small blender cup.  Serve with fresh berries.

Monday, September 21, 2009

Building Blocks Sample Pack

I received my Building Blocks sample pack this weekend.  I tried them tonight, and overall they are chalky.  I did like the Black Raspberry Iron chewable though.  I'll post more about these vitamins, but right now they are not in the running for my vitamin regime.

I have had problems recently with acid reflux, and the night I took these vitamins it was worse.  I'm not sure why.  Last night, I stopped drinking water an hour and a half before bedtime and I still had problems.  I'm going in for a little unfill to see if that helps.  Trial and error. 

Monday, September 14, 2009

A Spoonful of Ice Cream with vitamins!

I have got to do a better job of taking my vitamins, the gummies are not sufficing.  My once thick hair hair is falling out at a more aggressive pace lately.  I am remedying this by taking GNC's Women's Ultra Mega® Maximum Nutrition Formula - Vanilla.  Let's see how it goes. It's got at least 100% of the vitamins necessary to store hair and nail growth: Biotin,  Zinc, and Iron. 

Edit:  I took 1 tablespoon of the vitamins in a 1/2 cup of Blue Bell Homemade Vanilla ice cream.  Yes, I know that's so not diet food, but when you only eat little amounts of food and ice cream makes you happy. It was a little gritty, but the ice cream helped it go done.  A spoonful of sugar is quite nice.

I'm going to try this everyday for a week and see if the hair loss issue improves.

Friday, September 4, 2009

Doctor's visit

My follow up today on the kidney stones was a nice nod and you're doing great from my PCP.  Things are looking good and I don't need to go back until January. Dr. L improved my otherwise crappy day as I had been up late last night coughing and keeping Jonathan up. Today was a strange day. I had forgotten to put my doctor's appointment for 12:30 on the calendar so when the client I was suppose to meet with for my lunch appointment showed up at 8:00AM, it surprisingly all worked out.

I have no plans this weekend other than to exercise and babysit tomorrow evening.  I have a friend coming in from Austin whom I'll probably have brunch with on Sunday before the Decadence parade, please don't let it rain!!! I have my big gay umbrella ready and I am looking forward to seeing some familiar faces in the crowd.  Maybe I'll even see my high school art teacher! Anyway, my honey is playing Rome and I'm about to go hang at the pub and visit my sister for free stuff since she's packing to move to Memphis this weekend.

Wednesday, September 2, 2009

Weigh In!

September 2, 2009 - The verdict's in.  I lost 9.5 pounds in the last month.  I weighed in at 233! That's 61.5 pounds since January 7, 2009.  8 months, 61.5 pounds.  I'm excited.  I would like to lost 100 by the year marker.

I need to do a better job of writing in here.  I need to log my workouts.  I need to go to Anytime Fitness and set up a membership.  I need to get out of the house more!

Sunday, June 14, 2009

Noticeably different...

I've received more compliments this week on my weight loss than I have in a long while.  There is a remarkable difference in my CLOTHES finally.  I have things that are absolutely too big to take in now.  I no longer fit into anything is above a size 20.  Some of the 20's are ok, but all those 22/24's and 26/28's need to be purged from my wardrobe.  I am debating on what to do with it.  If I continue to put it off, i will end up donating it to Social Concerns instead of making some money from them on eBay.  I just haven't gotten motivated to do the eBay thing.  It would require me taking lots of pictures, posting it and then boxing it all up so I know the weight to calculate the shipping.  Efforts I just haven't found the energy for yet.

I have no restriction right now, sometimes... granted, not always.  Sometimes, I can only eat 4 or 5 bites of food, other times I can put away a thick juicy NY Strip steak like I did Thursday night.  Okay, I only ate about 4 oz, but still, it was A LOT.  About to test myself at the Chinese Buffet.  I certainly don't eat my money's worth anymore.  I usually get a 2-3 oz. piece of salmon, two pieces of snow crab roll, and then have some ice cream.  Not worth the $12.95, but Jonathan likes to make up for it with his appetite.

Tuesday, June 2, 2009

101 lbs gone!!!!!!

I started this weight loss journey in March 2004, when my weight topped out at 353 lbs. I went to the doctor and saw that number on the scale I thought I would die... hell, I knew I was going to die if I didn't do something about it. I quickly lost about 40 pounds and hovered around 315 for years.

Finally, when I moved to Orlando post Katrina for grad school temporarily, I got below 300 and into the 280's. It was tough, I worked out every single day while staying in Florida. I did fought the same battle of the 280's while in Austin. I was fed up when I realized I was turning 30 and the damn weight hadn't come off. So I decided to get the band. Now, I'm 5 months out and I've lost 44 pounds.

However... I am so very proud to say that I have now lost over 100 pounds now since I started this journey. I didn't realize I was coming up so quickly on this benchmark! I am completely WOWED. I DID IT. The band helped, but I DID IT! And damnit, I'm going to keep on doing it until I'm down to 145.

HELL, I can't believe I'm telling all my friends that number (353), but I've gotten to the point where I just have to be honest with myself and the world... Obesity is an obvious and debilitating ailment and losing weight on your own or with help from a medical device is just plain tough! Even with the band, I've had stalls that made me crazy.

Wednesday, May 20, 2009

May 2009

I have not been avoiding you, my dear readers.  I am back.  I lost 5 pounds in February, March, and April, respectively.  I was so frustrated with it, I just didn't want to talk about it here.  Oh, and I didn't have the internet at home, so my time was restricted to borrowed wifi, breaks at work, or coffee shops.  I had been going to PJ's on the weekend, but now that I am making iced coffee at home- there's no need to waste money there. Cutting out lots of things. 

Trying to keep food down most of the time.  It's difficult to do at times.  If I'm stressed at mealtime, my stomach tightens up and I just can't keep anything down.  It's unpleasant, but hey, penguins do it for their young... Slimming isn't all that bad.  For one, it's not food coming up with bile, it's just spit and food.  The pouch above the band doesn't have bile in it.  Spit.  I spit a lot.  If I'm eating something too dry like a granola bar - it's painful without water.  Something, eating something will just plain hurt and I have to get it up. 

However, I'm finally at the point where I evaluate texture of foods and make better decision about what I'm eating in different social settings.  If I'm eating with people I don't know, I seem to tighten up.  Nervousness, what have you, maybe I'm distracted or self-conscious about how weird it is to order a glass of ice and then proceed to order some type of chunky soup that I know will go down without incident. 

I refuse to allow anything like the broccoli incident to occur again.  It was gross and embarrassing. Yes, I'll talk about it here candidly because I think it's important to share with people.  I have yet to explain my bizarre food habits to one of the people that was at the table that night because I don't know the guy.  He's someone I work with, and well, telling anyone I don't have to about the surgery is difficult.  

As for keeping it from people who know me and ask me about it, no problems.  I prefer people don't ask me more than I'm willing to share though. I try to be polite when confronted, explain or be educational, but sometimes, I just feel like I've become this freak of nature.  I love food.  It hasn't always loved me back, so my revenge was to strap down my stomach and force myself to lose weight.  It's still a little disturbing and extreme on some levels to me.  How come some people have the will power to lose it on their own?  Why didn't I just turn out to be one of those athletic people who naturally burns lots of calories everyday and can eat anything?  I don't know.  It's just not fair, but modern medicine.... I thank you. 

Oh, and I lost 10 pounds this month.  I am overjoyed. 

Wednesday, May 13, 2009

Shrimp and Grits

If you're doing low carb, skip the grits!  I was hard core low carbing, but since I can barely eat anything I've been having a little bit of carbs. 


Saute 1/2 onion, sliced and 2 stalks of celery, chopped in 1 tablespoon of butter until tender. Add 1-2 teaspoons of minced garlic and 1 tablespoon of olive oil. Add 1 lb. medium sized peeled shrimp (25-30 ct. per lb., got them from Kay at the farmer's market.) Season with 1/2 teaspoon Tony Chacherie's No Salt Seasoning, a lot of cracked black pepper, 1/2 teaspoon salt, 1/4 garlic powder, and 1/4 teaspoon cayenne pepper. Add 1/2 cup of chicken broth, 1 tablespoon of Creole Mustard, 5-6 dashes of Crystal Hot Sauce, 1/2 teaspoon Horseradish. Simmer for 2-3 minutes until the sauce is reduced.


4 cups of water, 1/2 teaspoon salt, 1 cup of grits. Cook grits for 7-8 minutes or until done. Add 2 tablespoons of tomato pesto and 1/2 parmesan cheese. Serve shrimp over grits. Nom.

Tuesday, May 5, 2009

Hey all you geeks and geekettes out there!  Check this out:  ShrinkGeek

For geeks getting fit, this is a site run by my friend Mike.  Oodles of exercise geekness links...

Friday, April 24, 2009


I must apologize. I've been neglecting my blog lately.  I lost five pounds last month. Life is generally good aside from the slow weight loss.  Slow and so we go.

I did start my new job, which has been three weeks now.  It's been a slow start but we did move into our space today.  My co-workers and I had been holed up in one corner office- four people and a constant traffic of folks in from the Baton Rouge office.  Everyone is really nice and I'm excited about things. 

Love is good.  It's good to have people you love and who love you back around all the time.  It's good to have an amazing person to see everyday and to ask you how your day was, have dinner and then read or watch movies for the evening.  I've been having a lot of new revelations about life.

I need to do better with tracking my food.  I can't eat much, so when I have to choose food I've been able to eat a lot of protein, some veggies and then a tiny bit of carbs.  It's hard and when you don't follow the order as you should, that's when you get sick.  You feel like you have heartburn or you're gagging for your breath.  I have to eat slowly.  I have to choose wisely.  I gave it at least 100% today.  I will try for 100% tomorrow too, but yesterday was probably an 80%.  I need to weigh myself once a week.  I haven't been because I don't want to do it every day. It's time to bust out the Wii Fit and take measure. 

I've been working out, but not nearly enough to make a difference.  Jonathan and I walk around the complex 2-3 nights a week.  I'd like to sign up for a membership at Elmwood fitness center in One Shell Square, but I'm not so sure I want to pay $65 a month for a gym membership.  It should not cause lots of money to sweat off some calories.  Jillian Michaels 30 Day Shred is the answer until I can justify that expense.  Okay, even though it's Friday night, I'm off to take a nap.  I'll try my best to update soon or follow me on Twitter.

Friday, April 17, 2009

is off work early! Woot!

Wednesday, April 15, 2009

Blog by email and phone

I've now set up blogging from my email and phone!  Hopefully, this will increase my posting - especially increase picture posting and food intake blogging!

Weigh-in, Restriction, and goodness...

I made it through the race in one piece.  Finished in an hour and forty-six minutes.  I was very surprised and delighted that my sister, Charlena, walked/jogged the race with me.  I had some terrible cramps on the bus back, but I've fully recovered now.

Weigh-in was Monday.  I lost 5 pounds.  Again, I'm disappointed in that it was only 5 pounds, but it's still a loss!  I won't complain about it.  A loss is still a loss and I'm still not completely restricted.  I have about 7cc in an 11cc band.  Still a little ways to go, but the doc says I'm approaching the sweet spot for my height/weight.

The .5cc fill he gave me is noticeable.  I made Jonathan some Chicken Pesto pasta last night and all I could eat were about three forkfuls.  I felt restricted after the second and waited it out a bit.  He's making roast beef in his new crockpot for dinner tonight.  I am so excited because roast beef is one of my favorite dishes.  Unfortunately, I expect not to be able to eat much of it.  I'm eating a little less than a half a cup per meal these days.  For instance, right now I have a 6" grilled chicken sub on my desk that has less than two bites out of it and I'm already full.  It's a working lunch because I had to go home and lock the door 'cause someone forgot his keys in my car.  (Being the nice girl I am, I went home to lock up during lunch and brought him his lunch that he forgot in the fridge.)

Friday, April 10, 2009


I'm ready... Had 3 Drago's BBQ oysters, 4 fried shrimp and about 12 french fries... I was stuffed after that. Went for a walk and now I'm ready for bed.  I'm well hydrated and now will go to get some rest.  See you in the morning.  I will be twittering during the race a few times if anyone wants to follow me through the Crescent City Classic!

Thursday, April 2, 2009

Noticeable differences...

It feels good to have someone you don't really know notice that you're losing weight.  The advantage of doing volunteer work has been that people see me about once a week and they say, "Wow, you look like you've lost weight since last week!"  It made me feel awesome.

I'll post pictures soon.  I've just been so busy.  I got a job, waiting on my offer letter today, actually.  Life is good.

Friday, March 27, 2009

Overeating issues...

I ate myself through Texas and Louisiana the last two days.  On the drive to Austin, I was pretty good stopping at Mickey D's and getting naked grilled chicken snack wraps.  I ate around the tortilla.  However, I stopped to get gas and let the rain pass me by in Columbus and ended up buying a bag of cajun trail mix.  I proceeded to eat the entire thing.  Terribly bad.  The next day, I woke up in Austin and I was raging with cravings.  Chocolate, pizza, ice cream, vanilla cinnamon almonds.... again, bad, bad, and the band let me do it.  I let myself do it.  I think it's that time of the month.

I got back into New Orleans last night around 11pm.  I refrained from chowing down on the pound of Texas barbeque and proceeded to feel extremely ill.  I even threw up, but I couldn't tell what it was that came up.  I guess 20 hours in a car in a span of 36 hours can do a number on the body.  The 10 hours back were entirely driven in the pouring rain.  That was stressful.  I'm recovering with a breakfast burrito at Chateau Cafe on Robert E. Lee now waiting for my sister at her doctor's appointment.  I think someone in New Orleans needs to reopen Movie Pitchers on the Alamo Drafthouse model.  That would create an attraction here in Lakeview... since the only other attraction to its suburbia is the view of the lake.

Thursday, March 19, 2009

St. Joseph's Day

Happy St. Joseph's Day!

Unfortunately, I didn't take any pictures of the altar because I forgot my camera in the car.  But here are the breads that I baked!

I thought they looked pathetic but everyone told me they turned out nice.  I hope so!  I can't eat them so I couldn't taste test them! I did eat quite a few oysters and shrimp though and they were yummy!!!  No cake though, no cookies... I was good for the most part.  Okay, fried oysters and shrimp aren't on the diet, but it was only a few!!!

Wednesday, March 18, 2009

Orange Roughy Filet with Zucchini-Italiano

This couldn't be easier:

1 Orange Roughy Filet
1 T Olive Oil
2 tsp. Adobo Seasoning in Bitter Orange Flavor (or your favorite seasoning salt)

Butterfly filet, season well.  In frying pan, coat olive oil in pan on medium heat.  Cook filet for 3 minutes on each side.

1 Zucchini, sliced on the bias
1 T Italian Seasoning
1 T olive oil
Salt and Pepper to taste

Toss zucchini in olive oil and seasonings in ziploc bag. Cover baking sheet with aluminum foil (for easy clean up) and lay zucchini on baking sheet.  Bake at 350 degrees for 10-15 minutes.

Mix 1 tablespoon of One Carb Heinz Ketchup with 1 teaspoon of horseradish.  

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

Juice Plus Supplements

I received my Juice Plus supplements yesterday.  I took them immediately with some water and for the rest of the evening I had horrible gas.  I don't care if that's TMI- you're here for the low down.  It was unpleasant.  I'm cutting the adult dose in half to see if it keeps the gas away.  The chewables are not bad in taste at all.  The fruit supplement tastes berry-like and the veggie supplements takes lime-like.  Let's see what no-carb, juice plus supplements do for me on the scale this week.

Sunday, March 15, 2009

6 in 5!!!!!!!!!!

I LOST 6 pounds in 5 days!!!! No Carb and lots of calories burned!  That's what happens when you have the opportunity to get two or three intense cardio workouts a day and eat absolutely no carbs.  From Wednesday at weigh in (272) to Sunday, this morning (266)!!!! I am thrilled!  I hope to find a way to keep it up.  It certainly keeps a smile on my face!

Saturday, March 14, 2009

Fill #2 Update

Last night was two days out from my second fill.  Importantly, I must admit I have needed assistance from my index and pointer right at the end.  I ate just a little too much both times.  The sliming was easy but disgusting, so I have to do better taking note of when I am full. 
Each time I go out to a restaurant, I say to myself, “What is the best protein source on the menu, and what vegetables can I order that have the least number of carbohydrates?”  The result is usually fish or chicken, though beef or pork would be acceptable while the veggies are usually limited to broccoli, cauliflower, cabbage, or green beans. 
We went to Texas Roadhouse last night.  I ordered my glass of ice and got the usual confused stares from the two wait staff girls at the bar.  A few minutes later I asked for water so that I could mix my Crystal Light Blueberry White Tea into it and they seemed a tad relieved.  I ordered the Grilled Salmon with Peppercorn seasoning, green beans and fresh veggies which turned out to be baby carrots and broccoli.  I had a taste of both J’s barbeque chicken and pulled pork that would barely amount to a teaspoon, respectively.  Then, I managed to eat about a third of the salmon filet with some tartar sauce and a few green beans without touching the broccoli or carrots.
The last bite was two bites too late.  I sat there with the look of terror on my face, turned to J and nodded.  I quickly walked to the bathroom, bruising my arm in the process as I swung open the stall without closing the door and quickly stuck two fingers down my throat.  A little pink mass slid back up and I instantly felt better.  I don’t recommend this, but I think it is part of the learning curve.  Though is seems a disturbingly bulimic behavior, it has happened only 3 times in 3 months.  Each incident has been thoroughly documented, and I am becoming better at recognizing the feelings of satiety much more keenly.  You never know which foods will be to be difficult to digest.  I’m sure though more trials and errors, I will become more aware of fullness prior to necessitating a slim.
I had a left over third of the salmon today for lunch with a tablespoon of Wasabi Mustard and a few green beans. There’s still more for another meal.  This truly beats having to eat at home. Now when I have leftovers, I am able to recycle them into some sort of protein salad.  Fish does best with only adding additional wet flavoring sauces, such as tartar sauce, mayo, lemon, salad dressing, or some additional seasoning.  Chicken, I prefer to add some minced onion, minced celery, a few nuts, and a vinaigrette.
As for exercise, I’ve been taking walks frequently and have worn the Polar the last two days.  I burned a excess 5,000+ calories a day while ingesting less than 1,000.  I am going to continue to monitor the calorie deficit and see if the weight loss is occurring accordingly.  Fun with numbers!  It is one big equation.  You have to keep track of what you put into your body, the physical exertion of your daily activities and mental wellness. 
I have to say, my mental wellness has been at an all time high.  I am feeling successful, accepting the rate of loss will not always be as ambitious as I have planned out, but as long as I am following the rules the weight will come off. 
Patience is key.  Understanding satiety and learning tolerance is pinnacle.  Dedicating yourself 100% to following all the rules, all the time, and not deviating- it’s harder than anything I’ve done in my life, but it’s getting so much easier to make the right choices because I am feeling the results.  

Friday, March 13, 2009

No Carb Update

I've been doing a fair job no carbing as much as possible.  Yesterday, I ate about 1/2 a baked chicken breast, some grilled onions, and cabbage at Piccadilly for lunch.  I got broccoli but it didn't quite make it into the mix.  Last night, I had a 6" chicken breast from Subway without the bread.  Again, not so bad but the Honey Mustard is questionable coming in at 7 carbs per serving.  A few carbs won't kill me, but when the Juice Plus comes in they are all out the door. 

I need to start compiling the list of "no carb" acceptable foods.  It is virtually impossible to do zero carbs, so I will include a few acceptable foods on the list that have 2-5 carbs.  I've place a limit on the daily carb intake to be no more than 20 carbs, but I will aim for no more than 10. 

Here's a list of foods by carb content. I will make an exception for some of the items that have a few carbs.  I like the LapBand Website's Cottage Cheese pancakes a little too much to give them up entirely.  I will probably replace the oats with almond meal though.  Let's see how that goes!

The game plan today is to hit the ground and sweat out some calories.  I'll report back on how that goes.  

Thursday, March 12, 2009

Day 55: Rules of Dedication

It has occurred to me that the weight loss surgery process has many psychological stages.  The first few weeks after surgery for me were trial and error, not always entirely following the few rules all the time.  The disappointment of not seeing double digit numbers on the scale my second month further enforced the need to complete and total commitment to this program. 

Dr. Belott threw out the “no carb” option again yesterday.  I realize it’s not for everyone, but I have found the momentum to keep up a commitment.  The good doc suggested Juice Plus supplements, which I have heard of before in the many conversations I had with Dr. Elkin about nutriceutical supplementation.  I do like my supplements because I have seen the good they can do over time with Omega 3's and focus and concentration in ADHD.  

J. and I went to dinner last night at Chili’s.  I got the Cedar Plank Tilapia with Broccoli and pushed the wad of mushy rice stuff to the side.  I ate about ¾ of the fish and three pieces of broccoli.   I continue to be disturbed by wait staff that look at me funny when I order a glass of ice.  It came in handy toward the end when it began to feel like I ate too much.  I left the fish in my car though, and peu-whee! Good thing I bought Air Freshener at the dollar store yesterday.  Oh, and .80 cent pants in sizes 18-20 and 14-16.  You can't beat two pairs of pants for under $2!  They are both workout type pants, so let's hope the seams don't split on me or anything! 

I can no longer gobble my food as I used to but I am not complaining.  It has made me realize how much I’ve overdone it all these years.  I imagine that I have ingested billions of unnecessary calories in order for my body to run properly.  So, I am now creating the necessary calorie deficit to remove the excess weight with a little help from my band.

 As I lose weight, it is difficult to see lots of change but I am starting to notice.  I did have to buy a pair of size 18 jeans last Friday at JCPenney for $20.  They were slightly snug the day I got them, and now they are just right.  The slight difference in the mirror from the side view is pleasing me now.  The trouble with rapid body shape change is not to fret too much as the changes occur. 

 Pre-surgery, I worried a lot about the loose skin that would accumulate all over, but I have combated that by trying to wear long sports bras, use Cetaphil with baking soda as an exfoliate daily, and use cocoa butter to keep my skin smooth and protected. I try not to ask anyone anyone for an opinion on how I look and I prefer people to not ask questions of me about my progress in person.  I refer them to the blog and encourage questions here.   It keeps the subject space confined to a forum where I have complete control.  I have discussed it with people who have the unfortunate pleasure of taking in a meal with me, and I try not to disturb them to much with the unpleasantries that may or may not occur. 

I did rant about the guy from the food show who made the comment to me about eating a meet ball in the fatshionista community, and I probably should have just kept it in the WLS and LapBand support group on LJ.  The problem with a public forum where you’re approached by a “control troll” who is a complete stranger is disturbing.  The problem with the internet is people get offended by things easily.  I meant no offense to those who may have taken it as a diet post in the slightest when it was truly a rant about public fat-acceptance.  

 It takes complete and total dedication to a list of very awkward lifestyle and fitness changes that are a difficult commitment for some people to accept.  Our relationship with food has so much to do with our emotions and not true hunger.  How many times have taken comfort in cheesecake and cookies because I felt lonely, sad or depressed?  I grew up and have lived in the national’s most amazing city for food. 

 I refuse to fail.  I will not let old habits sneak back into my diet for one year.  I don’t like to use the word diet, either.  This is a way of life.  It’s serious business and I am taking myself very seriously right now.  My goal is to set up my new cognitive behaviors to where the pleasure of eating only what is good for me comforts my ego.   All that I do, exercise, be it pilates or road races, or hitting the Stairmaster like a mad-woman for 45 minutes, will get me to my goal more quickly and at a health pace.

 I want to start interviewing women who have had LapBand and weight loss surgeries to understand their journeys as well.  We all have our story, and it’s important to share yours and have support from someone who has been through it.  This surgery is not for everyone.  My best friend Daniel did it without it, but it too him much more dedication- Biggest Loser dedication and a year of living at the gym.  He had some pretty rotten days where I remember chatting with him through his misery.  He’s the kind of inspiration everyone needs!

I’ve been making small daily goals.  Those daily goals are:

  1. Protein first.
  2. No dairy products.
  3. Only cold pressed iced coffee or low acid instant coffee with protein.
  4. Water, water, and more water.
  5. Chose pure protein sources and vegetables for meal times.
  6. Get in one hour of cardio per day.
  7. Do Pilates every day for at least 20 minutes.
  8. Use 5 lb hand weights to work my upper body and core for at least 20 minutes a day.  
  9. Write about what I’m doing as much as possible.
  10. Be a source of positive energy.
Okay, now off to do some work on my projects.  I have multiple projects going right now to keep me busy.... and none that are paying the bills.  Hopefully, that'll turn around soon enough! 

Wednesday, March 11, 2009

Weigh In Update, Fill #2

Official Weigh In: 272.5, 6.5 pounds lost  (yes, I'm a little disappointed with this number, but I'll grin and bare it. A loss is still a loss.)

I'm moving toward a virtually no carb diet.  If carbs are the culprit, then out they go.  All of them. Even the multi-whole-grain goodness of a Honey Oat Subway Grilled Chicken sammich- be gone.  

Fill #2 - I barely flinched.  Dr. Belott says I'm doing well, then I can't beat myself up over only having lost 6 1/2 pounds.  I would have been happier with 10.  Next month.... more than 10- and since I have everything to do with whether or not I make progress, it'll happen. 

There are a few issues that have come to light, therapeutically, that I wish to address with weight loss surgery and body image issues.  You have to be emotionally ready to commit yourself fully and completely to following some very basic weight loss rules when you have surgery.  I imagine that many people have never kept rules strictly and completely before, because I read things on forums and banders blogs that make me cringe a lot.  Cheetos? Potato chips? Pretzels?  Are you kidding me?  Those food items are not worth seeing progress on the scale.  If you can't give them up for a month before you have the surgery, what makes you think you'll be able to give them up for a year after surgery?  If you are going to let a surgeon cut you open to take the reigns on problems with your health, you must be willing to make a commitment to sticking to the right foods. 

I hate the word "diet." It is my least favorite four letter word.  My favorite is inappropriate for this blog though, but also the best form of cardio exercise I've ever had.  (Crosses my fingers and prays my mom never reads this!) Diet conjures up this strict regiment of can't haves and restrictions that one whose had weight loss surgery should have accepted the moment they woke up from the operating table.  It's not a restriction, it's just not an option any longer.  Those things are no longer edible for consumption.  They are not food items in my pantry. (Well, they are, since my parents wouldn't give up these things to support me.... nor would I ask them, they can continue to be fat and happy. BTW, my folks aren't really fat(morbidly obese) they are just overweight. So why should they care that keeping carbs in the house upsets me.)

One Saturday, very recently, I had the rabid urge to destroy all the carbohydrates I could find in the house by stomping on them on the kitchen floor.  Of course, I didn't follow through with that because the mess would have really been a pain the clean up but I think the act of getting anger with your toast really can help to see how it's keeping you fat.  Just get mad at the loaf of bread.  Tell it you hope it rots in hell with the rest of the criminals.  God has a place in hell for carbohydrates, right next to sugar!!!  Hmmm... I may have gone off on a tangent there, but I seriously think we'd all be fine without both of them. 

Weigh In Day

Breakfast: Chocolate South Beach Meal Replacement Bar

Water, water, and more water

Lunch - 1 oz. Galaxy Cheddar (Rice) Cheese

I have a weigh in at 2:30, so real lunch (a Smart Dog with One Carb Ketchup and steamed broccoli) will have to wait until after the appointment. 

Dinner: Mushroom, Bacon, and Black Bean soup, again

Calorie Burn Update

No workout yet today.  I'm debating if I want to get all stinky before my weigh in at 2:30... hrmmm...

I put the Polar on at 7:30AM, and it's now noon.  I have only burned 622 calories in 5 hours.  

I'd really like to find a job where I am always moving and working out.  I'd like to train as an exercise therapist.  Help people reshape the way they think about exercise and food.  I've done well with this... giving up CHEESE, one of my favorite foods and going vegan with it, and considering sugar and carbs poison has really helped. 

Does a Woman Have to Lose Weight to Get Lucky?

I saw this on the AOL headlines this morning, and it truly disgusted me.  The answer to this question is... Of course not!  It is all about the way you think of yourself.  I don't spend my days obsessing over what I can't change immediately.  I can't magically make 100 pounds melt off my frame, but I can get out and burn 1,000 calories on a 5 mile walk.  

I don't think about myself as a fat person. I have kind of always thought about myself as a thin person trapped in a fat person's body- who didn't eat like a thin person, but certainly thought about fashion in terms of what I will be able to wear when I'm thin.  I need to make lots of money, that's for sure.... if only to support my pending new wardrobe.  I've begun to keep a notebook of all the dresses I love so when I get to 130, I have a catalog of items I love.  I need to get the J. Crew catalog coming here again.  J. Crew has always been a favorite of mine. 

What I don't understand is why this girl would want to have AOL write an article like this about her weight loss.  Are they making these people up? Is the girl in the picture a model?  Emerald Cantron, is Charlotte Royal a figment of your imagination?  Maybe I've just never lacked self esteem in that area or I've just been lucky enough to meet guys who liked me as I am. 

I don't want a relationship anymore.  I want a career, a home, and money to travel.  I do want a man in my life but one who will do things he knows will bring a smile to my face and thinks about this with creativity.  I want a man who loves me with his whole heart.  I'm not sure that's what I have right now, I think I'm holding on to a duck.  A duck who I love very much, but it hurts me when I consider this behavior in this distance situation.  A duck would probably taste better as a hunk of foie gras.  

I wrote an email this morning.  In most respects, it was a last email.  I told him when he gets him self back to New Orleans, he should then think about contacting me.  I am tired the distance and his incommunicato control behaviors.  I have work to do in order to obtain my goals... all of them.  

Tuesday, March 10, 2009

City Park/NOMA adventure

I had a good trip to the park.  Unfortunately, I failed to recognize that NOMA is closed on Mondays and Tuesdays when I checked the website for entrance info.  Oh well, I burned nearly 1,000 calories round trip, so I will not complain about the mere fact that my intended outting was botched by the museum not being open today.  It's all gravy.  I lost ipodage around the bend at Tad Gormley.  It was nice to walk/jog the path at the end of the Classic.  I find when I've done the race (7 times now) that I lose momentum right at the end.  I may start training the Classic course once a week just to prepare mentally for what's to come at on April 11th.  

I thought I had registered for the United Way 5K over the Hale Boggs bridge the weekend before the Classic, but I can't find the receipt for it in my email... I need to keep looking because I thought for sure I did that! 

Stats from the Polar Heart Rate Monitor:  

Time: 12:00PM to 2:33PM  Total Calories Burned:  1256   Yippeee! 

Lunch:  South Beach Meal Replacement Bar, medium banana

Intense Cardio Update!

Last night I had a good hour of jogging with a friend of mine along the industrial canal in Algiers.  It was exactly what I needed to meet my cardio goal for the day.  I've already brought Faith and Chief for their morning walkies, but that was only about 20 minutes. 

Today, I am going to concentrate on taking in some culture by hitting the New Orleans Museum of Art.  Let's look at the pedometer:  

Here's today's route to NOMA.  According to the GMap Pedometer
I'll burn:

I am going to wear the PHRM and report back my actual calories burned.  

I need to eat some breakfast now that I've finished my iced coffee.  I was good, I had cold pressed iced coffee from PJ's this morning and then followed it with a Very Vanilla Iced Coffee.  Still, need to get some fuel before I take off.  

Later Folks!

Monday, March 9, 2009


The forbidden fruit, indeed.  Every time I try to eat an apple these days, I feel it.  I have to chew and chew and chew in order to get the damn thing down else it just sits there until it's funneled through the band.  I love apples, but I must be care with them now.  

Which brings me to the evolving mentality I have with food.  I don't hate it.  I don't love it.  It's just a necessity for living.  I have tried my best to politely avoid events where there will be an excess of food with the idea that if I don't expose myself to it, it won't end up in my mouth. 

The problem with food is that it is a necessity.  It's an addiction that can not be avoided.  So, my plans must be strategic, calculated, and exact.  I decided last night to implement a three day eating plan today.  Here's my menu:

1 oz. Galaxy Rice Cheddar Cheese
1 Smart Dog
1 T One Carb Ketchup
1 sm banana
1/2 Almond Protein Cookie (Recipe to come soon)

32 oz. H20
FUZE Slenderize Strawberry Melon x2 (I drank the whole bottle)

1 small apple
1 South Beach Meal Replacement Bar
1 Mini Quakes (White Chocolate Drizzle)

Mushroom, Black Bean, & Bacon Soup
1 Almond Protein Cookie (yeah, a whole one this time)

Repeat this on Tuesday and ALL LIQUIDS on Wednesday until 3:30.  I've got a weigh in at 2:30.  Cantaloupe & Chicken Salad for dinner on Wednesday. 

Very Vanilla Iced Coffee Mix

Very Vanilla Iced (or Hot) Coffee Mix

2 scoops IsoPure ZeroCarb Whey Protein Powder (Creamy Vanilla Flavor)
3-4 Tablespoons Kava (Low Acid) Instant Coffee
2 scoops GNC Women's Daily Multi-Vitamin Powder (Vanilla Flavor)
3 Tablespoons Sugar Free French Vanilla Creamer
3 Tablespoons Splenda

Mix all ingredients in a ziploc bag.  When ready to use, spoon 2 tablespoons into cup with 8 ounces of water.  Shake, blend (works great in a Magic Bullet Blender) or stir.   Adjust water/mix to taste.  Approximately 50 calories per 8 ounce cup/3 tablespoons mix. 

The Dairy Issues...

I believe it's come down to this... I must give up my beloved cheese... and milk products for that matter.  They do a number on my gastro-intestinal system.  Not only do I already feel a HUGE difference after only two days, I've convinced myself that the alternative rice Cheddar Cheese isn't so bad.  Okay, it's not great, it's not real cheese, but it is flavored like cheddar and since it's not fantastic, I shouldn't feel the urge to munch on another ounce after I've had my one serving.  I can't recall the brand I bought, but it was at Whole Foods in the refridgerator section.  When I opened the package, I immediately cut it into 8 retangular cubes, each a 1 ounce serving equaling 60 calories, 2 carbs, no fat, and 5 grams of protein. 

Sunday, March 8, 2009

Black Bean, Bacon, and Mushroom Soup

1/2 cup onion, chopped
6 slices of bacon, cut into 1/2 inch strips (if vegan, use meatless with 1 T Olive oil)
1 can diced tomatoes (Del Monte with garlic & onion)
1 can organic black beans
1 carton of Portobello Mushroom Soup
2 teaspoons cumin powder
1 teaspoon paprika
1 teaspoon Hickory Seasoning Salt
1 package of Shiritaki Noodles (http://www.shiratakinoodles.n
1 package Cheddar (Rice) Cheese
50 Minutes to Prepare and Cook


On low-medium heat in a frying pan fry bacon until crisp and drain 90% of the bacon fat. Add 1/2 chopped onions and cook until clear. Transfer the onions and bacon into a stock pot. Add black beans, diced tomatoes, and mushroom soup. Season with cumin, paprika, and hickory seasoning salt. Cook for 20-30 minutes on medium heat. Add shiritaki noodles and cook for 5 minutes. Serve with Cheddar (Rice) Cheese.


On low-medium heat in a frying pan fry bacon until crisp and drain 90% of the bacon fat. Add 1/2 chopped onions and cook until clear. Transfer the onions and bacon into a stock pot. Add black beans, diced tomatoes, and mushroom soup. Season with cumin, paprika, and hickory seasoning salt. Cook for 20-30 minutes on medium heat. Add shiritaki noodles and cook for 5 minutes. Serve with Cheddar (Rice) Cheese. 
Serves 8. 

Saturday, March 7, 2009

Saturday Morning Pancakes!

I can't have the awful waffles anymore... Here's a recipe for band-friendly pancakes! Oh, and yes, that is steam coming off of those hot little cakes!

Serving size: 2 pancakes  

Recipe makes: 2 servings


1 egg

1/2 cup low-fat cottage cheese

1/3 small ripe banana

1 Tablespoons Splenda

1/2 cup steel cut oats

1/4 teaspoon baking powder

1/2 teaspoon vanilla extract

1/2 teaspoon ground cinnamon


1.) In the blender, add egg, cottage cheese, and Splenda, blend until smooth.

Then, blend in the oats, baking powder, vanilla extract and cinnamon.

2.) Heat a flat skillet or griddle over medium heat. Coat skillet with nonstick cooking spray.

3.) Using a 1/4 cup measure batter for one pancake, pour batter into hot skillet. Cook each pancake about 3 minutes per side.

Serve with Splenda sweetened Maple Syrup, jam, or jelly.  Enjoy!

In pictures! 

Take batter:       

Pour into skillet:  

Now flip it over:


I haven't had any real cravings for junk food, except the Oreo Cakester minis, which I believe have now been taken out of site... 

What I do have an odd craving for?  Bleu Cheese, Walnuts and Granny Smith Apples

Curried Cashew Carrot Ginger Soup

1 cup Cashew Carrot Ginger Soup (by Pacific Naturals Foods, found at most groceries stores in the soup aisle, or at Whole Foods)
1/2 curry powder
1/4 garlic powder
1/4 teaspoon celery salt
2 Tablespoons Greek Yogurt (a small boost of protein)

Blend well.  Add crushed cashews to the top for garnish. 


This lovely snipit came from Sparkpeople, they do a great job of sending motivational emails every single day.  Sometimes I hit "spam" and they'll all disappear for a few days, but then I catch it in there.  This one is truly beautiful considering so many of us emotionally eat.  If you create a positive emotional atmosphere with food, and only eat healthy, purest form foods your body is bound to feel better! You'll look better on the outside and feel better on the insider. 
I like to think my attitude is worth catching, but sometimes I catch myself slipping up in my thoughts, words, and actions.  It is a commitment- keeping yourself honest! 

I will keep creating my recipes, doing my workouts, and watching the scale.  Stay tuned. 

Chickaloupe Salad

Cut and peel the follow, and place in a stainless steel or glass bowl:

1/2 cantaloupe
3 chicken breasts, diced
6 ounces green grapes
1 grapefruit, seeded and cut in cubes without rind or skin (that can be tricky!)
1/4 minced onion
1 golden raisins
1 stalk of celery, shaved and finely chopped

Sprinkle with salt to taste.  Season with 1/2 teaspoon cumin powder

In a mason jar:

2 tablespoons almond oil
3 tablespoons balsamic vinegarette
1 1/2 tablespoons light mayo or light sour cream
1/2 cup acorn squash and mango soup (found at Whole Foods by Imagine Natural Creations)
1/4 cashew carrot ginger soup
1 Tablespoon Brown Sugar Splenda
1/4 teaspoon celery salt
1/8 teaspoon apple pie spice

Shake yo' booty and the jar now. 

Add half of the salad dressing to your mixing bowl.  Marinate overnight, else you'll sit at the computer typing while gobbling it up.   To serve add 2-4 crushed almonds on top of the salad. 

Friday, March 6, 2009

Friday post

A positive internal dialogue about how you are doing will make a big difference in the output on your progress.  My internal thinking is sorting through lots of old baggage.  I made this huge decision, and no one else can be in charge of what I put in my mouth.  I have this medical device now implanted to take away the crutch of years of a bad habit of not paying attention to what I was eating.  Food is just plain tasty, why not have another piece of cake and ignore the fat.  Now I ignore the fat gram counts, and pay more attention to carbs and sugar.  I've given up sugar almost entirely.  When I do eat something with sugar in it, I can usually recognize it and stop.  

There are bad experiences with having a band around my stomach.  There just are foods that I can not tolerate.  I'm certainly still early on into the stages of seeing which foods those are though, but I know that tortillas are not my friend.  Chicken, if moist, lots of eggs, cheese, soft veggies, and a few bites of 7 whole grain crackers are popular choices in tiny amounts I can't believe are a half a serving because  now I'm full.  Some days, I can barely take two bites of these things.  I've taken to waking up and drinking water for an hour before I can have breakfast.  I order tea when I go to a coffee shop, because it helps to soothe my stomach. I have be amazingly strict about not drinking alcohol, and I couldn't tell you how amazing that is.  Wine is the only thing I even miss a little. 

I started off great about journaling the food I eat on a daily basis, but I've reverted to acknowledging it mentally as I calculate them as I measure.  In the last three weeks, it's been between 900-1500 calories.  My goal for next week is to write down every single thing.  I will start by inputting today's breakfast.  I'm torn between Sparkpeople and The Daily Plate now though.  There are so many damn places to keep track now.  I am going with LIVESTRONG.COM and will be using the Daily Plate.  Username is nanfit. 

Okay, I have got to go workout now.  More to come... 

Thursday, March 5, 2009

Motivational people

You have to have motivational people in your life who you respect, love and will always call you out on your bullshit.  The person who does this in my life is absent in presence, so being accountable via my personal reports are all he can go on.  I am committed to being totally and completely honest with my motivational mentor for weight loss.  

It is good to have a mentor through this process.  I suggest many mentors.  See your nutritionist, doctors, surgeons, and fitness experts as the experts in guiding your to personal expertise.  Keep a blog or journal of all your activities.  I am haven't been so much, but I do keep it in my head and tally calories, fat and protein within my daily ranges.  The Daily Plate is an excellent resource, as is Sparkpeople but I LOVE LIVESTRONG.COM.  They have partnered with the Daily Plate for food logging, and I am impressed with it.  Sparkpeople is excellent all around, but I think Livestrong gives them a run on the forums, sense of community, and food/exercise logging. 

Okay, I promised yesterday a run down of my supplements:

CLA Tonalin - For fat metabolism
Chromium Piccolinate - for glucose/insulin production
Flintstones Chewables - multi-vitamin
Omega 3 - fatty acid for brain and cellular health
Emergen-C - As needed when plagued by questionable characters in Walgreens
TUMS - Calcium supplement for strong bones

This combined with a low carb, high protein diet.  

Plastik (BBW movie!)

This is cute!

T Stand Exercise Demonstration

T Stand Exercise Demonstration

This is one of the things I love about Sparkpeople.  The daily email exercises that teach you a move a day.  It certainly can help change things around a bit from the usual routine. 

Speaking of usual routines, I am excited that tomorrow I will be able to do the run from Algiers Point to Gretna again.  5 miles, baby! 

whip it...

Bad habits are hard to break.  Thinking through decisions at times  like how this is going to affect the band can be tricky business.  It's hard to tell whether or not you'll be able to digest a bit of anything.  Bread is the main culprit, but there are some veggies one should stay clear of or just eat things that are too fiberous, stringy, or tough.  Chew, chew, chew.  Don't flush with water while you eat.  This is a bad habit to break if you just started eating and you choke up from a tight band.  Bands can be tight for a number of reasons.  I've noticed if I'm stressed out, I can't always get food down.  I take it as a signal I need to drink more water before I eat again. 
I've grown fond of nippling on apples and sucking the juice from the rind. The rinds can be difficult to digest.  If you eat it whole and you don't chew it finely enough, it could get stuck. I haven't done this myself, but I can see how it could happen now. 

Speaking of whipping bad habits in the bud, I've been doing well to train every day this week, but today.  So, three out of four ain't bad.  I can't skip again until next Thursday though now.  I'll track that progress through the next few days. I really love Jillian Michael's 30 Day Shred.  It's  a 20 minute circuit of cardio, strength training, and abs.  If you do everything along with it, you will sweat an average amount and burn some calories.  I need to wear the Polar Heart Rate monitor next time to report back the calorie counts. 

I really want the scale to say 260 by next Wednesday, but I think that is a big goal and could tread on poor band behavior.  Again, you really need to think about actions, plan meals in advance, or know your healthy options.  My new trick is to grab a handful of nuts to satifsy a milk hunger craving if I need an energy booster.  

Okay, now I need to sleep now. Another important factor in weight loss.  I'll post on this tomorrow and follow up on my supplement regiment. What I think about supplements, and whatever else I come across that's interesting. 

Wednesday, March 4, 2009


I have grown very fond of Subway's $5 foot long grilled chicken breast on 9 grain Honey Wheat bread.  I take one side of the bread off, and just have a salad on some toast with a little bit of cheezy goodness. Nom.  I get it with Pepper Jack, loads of lettuce, tomato, pickles, light mayo and brown mustard.  The five dollar foot long is great because it's two meals in one.  I can't even finish the first one. 

Yay! Weight update

My official weigh in isn't until next Wednesday, but I'm proud to say I finally got out of the 270's.  This morning the scale said 269!  Yippee! 

Tuesday, March 3, 2009

Eco-Friendly Plus Sized Clothing Manufacturers

This Eco-Friendly Plus Size Clothing manufacturers list is pretty impressive.  It's worth sharing everyone if you're up for all natural fibers in plus sized clothing. 

Low Carb, Sugar Free Cheesecake Mouse and Nut Cookies

I made these the other morning and have been eating them for a little mid afternoon snack.  I need to calculate the calories, but it is roughly 80 calories per cookie and about 60-80 calories for 2 tablespoon of mousse. 

Cheesecake Mousse on Pistachio Cookies

1/2 cup butter, softened
3 oz cream cheese 
1 small Jell-o sugar free pudding (any flavor is good, but vanilla or white chocolate works well)
1 tsp vanilla
1/4 cup Splenda (I used brown sugar Splenda)
1 cup whey protein Isolate -- or soy flour (I used half Isopure Zero Carb in Creamy Vanilla flavor and half soy flour) 
3/4 cup chopped nuts (I used pistachios in my first batch, but walnuts, almonds or pecans would work too)
1/4 cup heavy cream (you may need more than 1/4 cup, possibly 1/3 cup)

Preheat oven to 350°F. Cream butter and cream cheese until smooth. Add pudding mix and mix well. Next, add vanilla, Splenda, protein powder/soy flour and nuts. Add as much of the 1/4 cup cream to create a texture of soft cookie dough. Roll into 24 balls about 1 inch 25mm and flatten on a cookie sheet greased with non-stick cooking spray. Bake 10-12 minutes. 

Cheesecake Mouse
5 oz. cream cheese
1 package of Jello Pudding, Cheesecake Flavor (or any flavor of your choice)
1 1/2 cups heavy whipping cream
1/4 cup Splenda
1 tsp. Vanilla

Beat cream cheese until soft.  Add whipping cream and mix until thickened.  Add pudding mix, splenda and vanilla and mix until well combined. 

Pipe approximately 1 tablespoon of cheesecake mousse on each cookie.  

Other variations:  Butterscotch, Lemon, Chocolate, Vanilla, White Chocolate, Cheesecake or Pistachio mousse
Chocolate-Walnut cookies, Vanilla-Almond cookies, White Chocolate Pistachio Cookies

Monday, March 2, 2009

Weight Chart

30 pounds gone!!!!

Sunday, March 1, 2009

Product Review: Almond Breeze

Almond Breeze - Unsweetened Almond Milk in Original, Vanilla, and Chocolate Flavors

I love this stuff! It's a great alternative to cow juice, and especially great for people looking for a low carb alternative. 

Wii Fitness

I love my Wii Fit and I'm not ashamed to tell everyone about it. However, I have noticed that some of the games aren't as great as others.

Wii Sports - Love it!!! Though it's not the full on cardio necessary, it's fun. The boxing can provide a decent cardio workout if you are like me and get into it. I finally got a Platinum medal on the punching bag knock-out in the training area. I knock my brother out every time! That's a good feeling!!!

Wii Fit - There are very few cardio activities on the program that I find to be engaging over the long term. I love the balance games, strength, and yoga poses though. Overall, I give it a C- for true fitness training.

Jillian Michael's Fitness Ultimatum 2009 - I must say, this program leaves much to be desired. I do enjoy the workout, but the two Wii remotes is by far the most effective way to workout but still, it doesn't always register your movements. The Wii Fit board has a difficult time continually registering movement as well. Honestly, I'll stick to Jillian Michaels' DVD the 30 Day Shred. Great workout! Super sweating! Definitely a way to burn calories.

My Fitness Coach - I've not yet tried this one, but I am looking forward to checking it out.

EA Sports Canada is coming out with the EA Sports Active Personal Trainer, due to release May 2009. I am anxiously awaiting it's release, and I will report back as soon as I can on this one.

Woohoo! Success!

I weighed myself this morning and the scale said 272! I've lost 24 pounds total. I like this downward trend... now, let's keep it up!

Saturday, February 28, 2009

Weight Loss Stalls

They happen... I feel like I've been stuck at 275 for a month now. I started at 296 on January 7th. Today is only February 28. I have lost 21 pounds in two months. That is a success... but it isn't success enough for me. I am working out 2-3 times a week at a minimum, eating no more that 1500 calories a day. I'm suppose to be eating less from what I read on the boards. My doctor never really said a hardcore calorie limit- the nurse discussed the range in class, and it wasn't 600-800 calories. It was 3 meals a day, protein first, veggies second, and as few carbs as possible. I'm doing that. It's not moving.

So, I am trying to be patient. My best friend and I are going to start working out together. She is tiny and in much worse shape than me. There are unhealthy skinny people in this world, Jayne isn't--- okay, she is out of shape. Blaine, her hubby said, "Jayne got winded walking up the stairs at Cabela's." She doesn't deny it. I will run circles around her. I've been working out for 5 years now.

Nick tells me the stall is from age. I told him I feel like it shouldn't be... but 30 is where the body starts to slow down. Still, I feel like I should be able to beat those odds. I've done Jillian Michaels 30 day shred two days in a row now. It kicks my ass. I hope though, by the end of the year, I can do all three workouts without getting out of breath. That's my goal. I guess I better start hanging with Jillian and making it happen.

Monday, February 16, 2009

Sweet & Creamy Desserts

I've been developing these recipes out of necessity. I'm going strict by the rules. Low low carbs, no sugar, and high protein.

Blueberry Buckle

1/2 c. fresh or frozen blueberries
1 T chopped pecans
1/4 c. Vanilla Cream

Vanilla Cream:
2 scoops of Vanilla Protein powder (no carb, preferably)
2 cups unsweetened vanilla Almond Milk (Almond Dream or Almond Breeze)
1 package sugar free vanilla Jello Instant pudding

Blend almond milk and protein powder in a shaker. Add pudding.

Serve 1/4 cup of Vanilla Cream, 1/2 cup of blueberries, and 1 tablespoon chopped pecans or walnuts together.

Strawberry Cheesecake

1/2 c. fresh or frozen strawberries, thawed
1 T chopped almonds
1/4 c. Cheesecake Cream

Cheesecake Cream:
2 scoops of Vanilla (or Muscle Milk Light Cake Batter Flavor) Protein powder (no carb, preferably)
2 cups unsweetened vanilla Almond Milk (Almond Dream or Almond Breeze)
1 package sugar free cheesecake Jello Instant pudding

Blend almond milk and protein powder in a shaker. Add pudding.

Serve 1/4 cup of Cheesecake Cream, 1/2 cup of strawberries, and 1 tablespoon chopped almonds together.

Chocolate Raspberry

1/2 c. fresh or frozen raspberries
1 T chopped hazelnuts
1/4 c. Chocolate Cream

Chocolate Cream:
2 scoops of Chocolate Protein powder (no carb, preferably)
2 cups unsweetened chocolate Almond Milk (Almond Dream or Almond Breeze)
1 package sugar free chocolate Jello Instant pudding

Blend almond milk and protein powder in a shaker. Add pudding.

Serve 1/4 cup of Vanilla Cream, 1/2 cup of blueberries, and 1 tablespoon chopped pecans or walnuts together.

Farmer's Market Shopping

These urban markets have been repopulating themselves into big cities and towns alike. They are a great place to shop if you're trying to be healthy and eat local. Purchasing vegetables at a Green Market on a Saturday can save you a lot of time during the week. Choose 3-4 types of vegetables to prepare and 1-2 kinds of meat you want to eat during the week. Prepare foods and store them in the fridge for fairly quick fixings.

Turkey burgers (you can buy them in bulk)
Turkey hot dogs
shrimp (pre-cooked, just thaw!)
breakfast sausage, cooked
roast beef (shredded)
chicken salad (light version)

broccoli (steamed and stored in the fridge)
califlower mash (steam a head of califlower and mash two teaspoons of yogurt butter and two wedges of laughing cow cheese into it. Store this for use in recipes)
cabbage (shredded, great replacement for pasta style dishes)

Cheeses: (Use sparingly! No more than 1 tablespoon per serving in a meal)
Bleu Chese crumbs
Feta crumbs
Colby Jack
Goat's milk

Sunday, February 15, 2009

Getting better at this!

I'm definitely doing much better. Since my last doctor's appointment on Wednesday, I have lost 4 pounds! Woohoo! I've been eating only 3 small meals a day and that's about all I can handle. I had my first fill, and it seems to be successful so far. Next one is March 11th. It's a slow and steady race to get to goal, I know this.

Right now, I have gone through some phases of exhaustion and exhilaration. Friday I thought I was going to pass out at one point while walking the dogs. Then it started to rain, so I went into the bar. After a few minutes Jolie got me some juice and I felt better. When I got home, I felt so much better than I hopped on the elliptical for 15 minutes. Last night, I worked my abs and I can see a noticeable different because there are new stretch marks giving my waist some definition. That reminds me, I didn't take pictures this past Friday, so I should do that in the next few days.

At the farmer's market yesterday, I purchased heads of califlower, broccoli and some strawberries. I steamed the califlower and added two tablespoons of yogurt butter and two wedges of garlic and herb Laughing Cow Cheese then roughly mashed it. It's delicious. I steamed the broccoli to be eaten as florets, and then I cut the strawberries and marinated them in Blush Wine Vinegarette. I have a little two cup bowl of roast beef my mom made and some chicken salad I through together that I've been picking on. I eat about 2-3 tablespoons of meat and about 1/2 cup of veggies and I'm totally satisfied.

Thursday, February 12, 2009


My doctor told me no more protein shakes. He said they have too many carbs. And he also told me no drinking 2-3 hours after the meal now! WTH! He's changing it up on me. I don't know what to believe anymore. I'm guessing the rules change so quickly when you've just had the surgery. 30 minutes before and after seemed to be the rules for once I'm at my goal weight?! He said I can drink up until the meal, and then I can't drink for 2-3 hours after because I'm getting hungry too soon after the meal.

Color me confused. Has anyone figured out the magic formula? What kinds of things were you eating for meals one month out? two months? three months? He told me absolutely no carbs if at all possible. And no more liquid meals, and try not to use protein bars.

Saturday, February 7, 2009

Cake Batter Light!!!

This has been a BIG ordeal. I ordered two containers of it two weeks ago, and when I went to pick it up the dumbass clerk at GNC insisted that they did not make a LIGHT flavor. He told me you just use one scoop instead of two of the regular. OKAY, so I buy two BIG containers that cost close to $70 thinking, this is not right. I saw it online as LIGHT. One container was for me, the other for my sister. My sister opened hers.


Now I'm stuck with an unopened regular muscle milk container while my sister opened hers. I am going to go to the Mackie Shilstone GNC on Magazine Street and tear that guy a new one. I SPENT GOOD MONEY ON THAT, and it wasn't what I wanted and he lied to me. He didn't know any better probably, but the website had LIGHT. Anyway, even though they were BOGO, I am going to try to get the full amount back because I am NOT a happy customer. He better hope he's not working when I go on Monday or I may hurt him.

I have decided to switch solely to Muscle Milk light Cake Batter flavor. I'm going to have it for every meal now. It's fantastic. I want to make another one and drink it. I'm going back to liquids.

Thursday, February 5, 2009

Emotional Eating

I had a bad day today. I ate cookies... I knew I shouldn't, but I did and I felt terrible after I ate them. It was bad. I was doing so well and then I came to Austin to take care of some business.

I need to be good and not overeat. I need to exercise tomorrow, even if it's just to bring hefty Carmella for the walkies-- she is getting chunky.

But right now, I just need to go to sleep.

Monday, February 2, 2009

Colds and Workouts

I can't seem to shake this cold. It started last week on Thursday, but it didn't get nasty until Saturday night. Now I'm all congested... it didn't stop me from working out tonight. I spend 20 minutes each doing pilates, boxing, strength training and stretching and 45 minutes of walking. If that doesn't kickstart the weight loss, then I don't know what will. I also upped my water intake today to 120 ounces. I finally started keeping track of my food on Sparkpeople again as well. It's so much more accurate than my glittery purple journal. Paper and pen doesn't calculate the calories as accurately. Hopefully, I can keep it going while I'm out of town this week in Austin. I'm leaving Wednesday morning and coming back on Sunday. I have to pick up my container of Muscle Milk Light in Cake Batter flavor for the trip. I'm going to do protein shakes 2-3 times a day to save on eating out. I know the boys will cook for me and wait on my hand and foot as usual.

Sunday, February 1, 2009

Parmesan Crusted Tilapia

This is my new favorite thing to eat that I can have. The RN at my doctor's office reprimanded me for not moving from soft foods to flaky fish on day 12, so now I've incorporated this into my diet. I had this last night for dinner and today for lunch with some steamed veggies. It was fabulous!!!!!! Super quick and easy too!

tilapia filets
garlic powder
1-2 tablespoons of parmesan cheese

Pam cooking spray
Season filet evenly with salt, pepper, paprika, and garlic powder (in that order.) Coat filet with parmesan cheese, pat down cheese so it makes a solid coating. Spray microwave safe dish with Pam. Microwave filet on high for 3-4 minutes. (It cooks quickly, so if it's a 1/2" thin filet it'll only take 2-3 minutes, 3/4" thicker will take 3-4)

Saturday, January 31, 2009

First post

I had lap-band surgery on January 16, 2009. It's been 15 days, and I've lost 12 pounds since surgery. My surgery day weight was 292, and my weight today is 280. It was 278 at the doctor's office on Wednesday though, which pisses me off, because I think either their scale is 2 pounds lighter or my scale at home weighs two pounds heavier. Anyway, the daily pound is starting to wear off, so I know I need to step up the workouts. I walked two miles today, which is nothing compared to the 6 and 10 I used to do when I lived in Austin and hit Town Lake. Oh well, I'm trying to take it slow so I don't wear myself out from hard workouts early on. I'm also fighting back a cold, which I think I may have bit this morning with some Emergen-C Immune Defense. I'll trying to keep this blog updated. I'm so glad I finally had the surgery though, after 4 years of struggling to maintain a 60 pound loss, I now feel like I'm going to get over the hump and get down to 135 where I belong. I want to be on the smaller side, around a size 4 or 6. It's going to take a lot of work, but I will get there! That's for sure now!!!!